Sorry for the light posting lately. I haven’t felt much like talking, sometimes I just get tired of my own voice, you know?
The EMDR has been amazing. I highly recommend it if you have memories that haunt you. I took control over my memories listening to a drum beat in a small room and it enabled me to take control in my current reality as well.
Unfortunately, it doesn’t solve everything for me. I’m still down all the time and I just. can’t. shake it. If we could get my meds right maybe I could feel better. On Wednesday my therapist told me that since my depression is physiological it likely won’t ever be gone for good. I’ll cycle out of it, maybe for years at a time, but it will always come back. This leaves me feeling more determined to get the meds right and to learn how to handle things better. If I learn how to cope more appropriately then maybe each time I cycle back into depression it won’t be buried in blood and alcohol.
For now I leave you with some interesting posts I’ve read this week.
A call for Christians to work against the bullying of those in the GLBT community from Jesus Needs New PR.
A question about food stamps from Susan at Still Small Voice.